September
5, 2004
By Rev. Paul Fairley & Rev. Tessie Mandeville
(Paul) I want to share with you tonight some words that are often attributed
to Nelson Mandela but were actually written by Marianne Williamson:
Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that
we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that
most frightens us. We ask ourselves, “Who am I to be brilliant,
gorgeous, talented, fabulous?” Actually, who are you not to be?
You are a child of God. Your playing small does not serve the world.
There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won’t
feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine as children do. We
are born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It’s
not just in some of us; it’s in everyone. And as we let our own
light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the
same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically
liberates others.
Let us pray. Goddess, God, we open our hearts and our minds and our
spirits to you in this moment. Sew in us words of transformation tonight.
Come to us in the places where we need you. Heal us; make us new. Excite
us; wake us up tonight, O God. We are your people and we love you. Amen.
(Tessie) So for the past five weeks, we’ve been talking about
how to live our lives on purpose. And we said that every day we are either
moving toward our purpose that we’ve been created for, or we are
moving further away from that purpose. So each week we’ve come
together and we’ve looked at different purposes.
And the first one we looked at, if you will remember, was worship. That
part of why we are here is to worship the God of many names, the God
of our understanding. Not out of a sense of duty or a sense of fear but
out of a deep sense of gratitude and love for all that God has done in
our lives.
The week after that we looked at the purpose of fellowship, which we
called living in right relationship with one another. And we said that
often when you are in relationship, that there sometimes is inevitable
conflict. But that one of the ways that we honor our relationships is
to practice reconciliation with one another.
And in the week after that, Paul talked about discipleship as a purpose,
that ability to be present in the very moment. That ability to love God
with everything that we are right then and there, not having to wait
until we have changed some way or, or trying to make ourselves better,
but in that moment we open ourselves up and love God with everything
that we have.
And then last week, we talked about our fourth purpose, which is service,
and the way that we serve God in this world is by serving others. Does
all this sound somewhat familiar to you? (Yes) Ok.
So tonight, as we culminate this series, we talk about our fifth purpose,
which is mission. So you might say that God has a missionary position
for each one of you, (Laughter) along with some other ones but that’s
the one that we’re going to talk about tonight. (More laughter)
You were made for a mission. We were all made for a mission. And God
is at work in this world through your mission. And you were put on this
earth to make a contribution and your mission is your way of giving back
to God and giving back to the world based on your particular shape, your
hands and your feet and your feelings and your desires and your talents.
These are things that you look at to see, how do I fulfill my mission
in the world?
And the truth is, it sounds very cliché, but the truth is there
is no one else in the world like you. That’s beautiful. There is
no one else in the world like you. And I don‘t think that God went
to all this trouble to make us, to create us in this unique way just
for us not to bring that uniqueness forward. There is a reason that we
have been made this way.
And your mission, should you choose to accept it, (Laughter) is to share
what you have, to bring it forth into this world so that others can know
the divine through you, so that others have the opportunity to experience
the same love and the same grace that you have experienced because our
bodies were made for a mission.
(Paul) Now this might sound like we’re setting you up for mission
impossible because living life has often many challenges to it. Maybe
this has been a rough week for you or maybe you’re heading into
a rough week. I believe that our bodies know what they are made to do
and so this is good news for us because our bodies can tell us what we
are here to do, what our purpose is. Our purpose is already encoded in
the DNA that gives us our own shape to our bodies. Our purpose lies at
the core of who are created to be.
And so fundamentally living a life on purpose is not mission impossible,
but the opposite, the very possible mission of loving and honoring and
dwelling in the body that we are given. It’s a process of living
and loving what is most true about us. And I think as queer people (and
as we like to say, “If you’re here tonight, you’re
queer tonight”) as queer people especially, I believe we have something
to teach the world about spirituality and about living life on purpose
because I think we know what it means to honor what your body is made
like. I think we know what it is like to honor the desire of our body,
to accept, to go on the journey of accepting what our bodies love and
to seek out that love.
If you have come out to yourself then you are a spiritual revolutionary
because you are honoring the body that has been made for you. If you
have come out to one friend, then you are a spiritual revolutionary on
a mission because you are witnessing to that friend your light, your
love, your way of loving. And if you have come out to your family, to
your co-workers, to your friends, you are a spiritual revolutionary on
a mission because you are living for them your light, your love in your
body.
Coming out queer, though, is really just part one of the spiritual journey.
Coming out queer and spiritual, I think, is part two. How many folks
are more comfortable telling people that they’re queer than telling
folks that you spend Sunday nights in church? (Laughter) Right on. Owning
up to being a person consciously seeking the God of your understanding
is something in our culture which can be as difficult as coming out with
some kind of difference in how you gender identify or who you love, the
bodies that you love.
Coming out queer and spiritual is part two. Part three is coming out
queer and spiritual and as a part of this body, MCC San Francisco. Those
of us who have come to MCC often have found our spiritual home. If you
are new, we hope that that is what you find this place to be. We might
not be your spiritual home; we might be a rest stop on the journey for
you. We understand that but if you have found MCC San Francisco as your
spiritual home then there’s a part three to your mission, which
is to live your life in such as way that people see who we are in you.
They see our hospitality in you. They see our witness of what it means
to be a faith community where there are no rules, no bottom line, no
litmus test, nothing to jump over to get access to God’s love because
in this place, God’s love is for everybody.
If you have not taken that step to be on a mission not just for this
body that you have but also this body (MCC) that you have, then I invite
you into that mission tonight. Because the truth is, the world needs
us now more than ever. There are lots of ways to be on that mission.
Some of us talk, some of us sing, some of us create things. Some of us
sit every morning at home praying for folks in the congregation mindfully
regarding the life of our community, the silent people who lift us all
up in prayer. Those people too have engaged us on our mission.
I ask you tonight this question, “What is your body called to
be in this body of MCC San Francisco?”
(Tessie) Each of us has our own call, our own light, our own desires.
And this call that we have cannot be found outside ourselves in the expectations
of others or in the expectations of the world. All you have ever longed
for is here in this moment right now. Let that sink in for a moment.
All you have ever longed for is here in this moment right now. You don’t
have to search frantically for something outside of yourself. In fact,
let’s discard what we know of ourselves with the expectations of
others. We need to delve deeply into our own selves to find out who we
truly are and who we are called to be in this world.
And to hear the call, we need only listen. Sounds simple enough but
sometimes we can listen only when our illusions of control and safety
have been shattered. And the key is to give up striving to become who
we think we should be and embrace our true selves, imperfections and
all. We are all called, I believe, to open up to the sacred wholeness
that lives inside in each one of us in a particular way and then to share
that sacred wholeness with people around us, given our own strengths
and weaknesses, our own desires, our own thoughts. And we each have the
spark of the divine light inside of us. We are meant to shine. Our queer
bodies and our queer-friendly bodies are meant to shine in this world.
And yet sometimes, I think, we are afraid to shine. Sometimes we are
afraid to show our true selves in this world. And our sister, Marianne
Williamson says this, “Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate.
Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light
not our darkness which most frightens us. And we ask ourselves, “Who
am I to be brilliant and talented and fabulous and gorgeous?”
And I would say, “Well, who do you think those words were meant
for?” They had to describe queer people in some way. (Laughter)
So we had to come up with brilliant and fabulous and talented and gorgeous.
Amen? (Amen) Amen. But here’s the truth, we are all afraid sometimes.
And sometimes we are more afraid of our successes than our failures.
Sometimes that’s why our light frightens us more than our darkness
because we are afraid to succeed sometimes in this world. But fear is
a normal and valuable human emotion as long as we don’t let it
control us. And as we are liberated from our own fears, then our presence
automatically liberates others.
And I think that we have to remember even on our most difficult days
that we are meant to shine. That it is evitable that we need to shine.
And remember that we are an echo of the beloved. We are children, we
are people of God. And we are all here to contribute to this world in
the best ways that we can based on who we are. Which means that we have
a responsibility, an ability to respond to the world with our gifts and
our light because God has no hands in this world but yours. And God has
no feet in this world but yours. You, my friends, are God’s hearts
in this world and you are God’s bodies in this world. And the world
needs you. It needs all of us and our uniqueness.
And finally, remember that as we let our light shine, we unconsciously
give other people permission to do the same. I read a story just this
weekend actually of a doctor who founded a charitable organization and
then he traveled to India because he wanted to meet and sit with Maharaji,
who is a guru to the American spiritual teacher, Ram Dass. And speaking
of the incredible love that Maharaji had for everyone, the doctor tells
us, “You know I could almost begin to understand how he loved everybody.
I mean that was sort of his job. (Laughter) He was a saint and saints
are supposed to love everybody. But that’s not what has always
staggered me about him. What staggered me is not that he loved everybody,
but that when I sat in his presence, I loved everybody too.”
Because when we shine, we unconsciously give one another permission
to shine as well. And so, beloved community, may we be people who let
our lights shine in this world as we discover that living our lives on
purpose is really the only way, the only real way to live this life we
have.
(Paul) And remember that as we let our lights shine, (Tessie) we unconsciously
give others permission to do the same. Let it be and (both) Amen.
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